the white whale....

Well I have done my first weigh in..

I am officially 99kg or 218 pounds.

My goal weight is 79kg so I have 20 to lose.

Today will start the day with my regime that got me to 79 last time.. at least 1hr of exercise everyday and diet - no carbs or sugar.

I will be walking to and from work each day from now. I will change at work :)

Wish me luck... I'm going to miss all my delicious food.

PANIC ! at 4am..

I awoke this morning in a sweat... and short of breath and a half pass out...
I had a panic attack.

I am not in a very good financial situation at the moment as I have let debt run over me.

I can get myself out of it.. but it will take a lot of effort - lucky I have great friends to get me through.

In some ways the regrets are minimal - cos I have had so much fun overseas twice and bought a whole bunch of stuff. - Now it's time to be an adult.

I applied to consolidate my debt and a previous loan I am paying out... Here's hoping I get approved.

If I get approved I will be able to focus my attention to one spot - rather than 2 or 3. I already had a consolodation loan in 2008 - but again with my stupid spending it went right back to where it was.

I have felt guilty secretly about the money I owe.. but this time I know I can do .. i just need help.. and Im not afrraid to ask this time.

What I will also do to mark this occasion Is to start my ' Life changing' diet.

I was inspired by my dear friend Aaron and this weekend will be the start. I will give regular updates of how I am progressing...

stay tuned for the weigh in tomorrow.....

once more with feeling...

I have had a song in my head since wednesday evening... It's driving me absolutely batty !

It's from Music and Lyrics the movie.... ' A Way back into Love '

How does one get rid of a song like this ?

I have been listening to the radio all day.. but it's still there..

Maybe a weekend of non stop musicals and Disny movies will do the trick...

until then...

*sings *
All i Wanna do is find a way back into love..

he's such a Queen....

I am really looking forward to seeing Cookie again in a few weeks... Thanks to the Queen for letting us celebrate your birthday - we get an extra day off work.

I fly down early saturday and return late tuesday. Cookie will be away in Adelaide till Sunday arvo but It will be good to see him again.

I plan on cooking a nice big meal for him on his return - something delicious and a sweetie for dessert.

I don't know what kind of person i would be without him in my life.

A lifelong friend and my family forever.

Here's to you Cookie magoo munkey penguin buddy boo....

x x

a Brisbane state of mind....

For those of your reading this.... you should know that tonight is one of the most important sporting events for QLD

The State of Origin !

NSW vs QLD in a rugby match to end all rugby matches... well until game 2 happens anyways..

One sad thing this makes me realise is that in 2 weeks time.. it will be 1 year since I was in Canada... I missed game 2 and instead spent my time camping with gay cowboys...

Of course I will be supporting my QLD boys as I am a proud QLD Aussie !

Go the mighty Maroons !!

the silence of the lambs....

One thing that is going to give me a lot of flack is the next sentence...

I am getting a bit tired of gay rights activism... I can see the appeal and the reasoning behind it... but it seems to be going no-where.

I understand a lot has changed in the last 15-20 yrs... but everything has.

I am all for equal rights... but im not sure if the whole gay community know what this means...if we have equal rights.. we are no longer considered a 'unique community'.

If we got equal rights.. the mardi gras and pride festivals should be cancelled... there is nothing anymore to celebrate - we are no longer a part of a unique diverse community - we are the same as everyone else.

Or if they keep the pride festivals - does that mean they are allowed to have a straight pride festival ?? I highly doubt it.

Yes i want the right to marry who I want to - and to be able to feel un judged when I walk down the street with my partner hand in hand.

but this seems a long way off... and I'm ok with that.

I would like to apologise to Aaron in advance for this cos i know he is gonna hate this post... LOL..

welcome back...

Well well well...
I am terribly sorry I haven't blogged for a while.. I put it down to laziness.

I wish I had more to say... but my break is over for now...

We are moving to new building soon and using a new puter system.. lots going on.

In regards to my private life... not much happening..

I will post more later :D
I hope you people out there are being nice to each other..

And congrats to Aaron on his great weight efforts... no more mint slice for you piggy.

x x Petie